Loving you is
the best thing that ever happened to my heart. It is not the air I breathe
because oxygen is. I will not say I cannot leave without you because I am
living life to the fullest and yet we are miles apart. But surely as the sun
rises and sets, as the seasons come and go summer to fall, fall to winter and
on and on you are the one for me. The one who makes me want to get all mushy
and gushy and just shout to the world that meeting you was the best thing ever,
well maybe not the best cause when you put ring or rock on it that will be the best day ever. Diamonds are a girls best friend as you know.
She said to me
one day, “my boyfriend thinks that I love
him more than he loves me,” wow!! how do you respond to that? Is it
possible to love someone too much? Is it wrong to make someone your number one
priority, be the girl he wants, cook, clean, serve, carter to his needs both
physical and emotional and yet he thinks you love him to much!!! It begs to
wonder why on earth is it that when you’re the best girlfriend in the world men
think they are being suffocated but when you are not they say they are not
getting enough of your attention. If my boyfriend told me that I would have
been out of the door before he finished that sentence and he would have never
seen me again. I always wondered why my friend stayed with him but it was her
business I did not want to stick my nose in their love affair. Maybe she loved
too much, but could you blame her, that’s what she did best, she was his friend
and lover.
“He is ten years older than me, I love older
men, they are so mature, they do not play games am gonna give him a shot” another
one told me. Three years down the line in an on and off relationship, he has a
kid and not just a kid, a freaking 5 year old boy and a “come we stay” wife, he
texts her and tells her never to call her again and that he has a wife now. She
calls me crying her heart out, because it’s been broken and shattered into a
thousand tiny pieces. She is sobbing and wailing, wondering why fate is after
her again. She does not understand, she was with him a week ago everything was
pure bliss and now he has a wife and kid, suddenly the world is spinning right
left center and all she wants to do is go back and relive their last days
together, because she still loves him. He was supposed to be her husband, in
her head they had already walked down the aisle a hundred times. She had said
yes to him before the priest, their family and friends but that’s was just a
fiction of her imagination. Now reality has kicked in and she sees him for who
he is a lying bastard and a coward. Such a coward he did not even have the guts
to call her and break the news in person but still a coward she loves.
One year
later he on the other end of the line begging her to forgive him, saying he is sorry
and admitting he was a coward and he made a mistake but the milk has already
been spilt. She gives him a chance to meet him in person so that he can beg for
forgiveness and although she has already moved on she just wants to see the
look of remorse on his face so that she can believe it. Once they meet up the
spark is there again it did not die apparently, it just faded and he still
takes her breath away again. She is tied by his spell and she cannot break it
even if she tries. I listen to her telling me all these new information, yes
she is glowing, I have never seen her happy like this. Is she really
considering getting back with that sham of a man? Is she crazy? All these
questions run through my mind as she gives me a full detail of their reunion.
These friends of
mine all beautiful, young, powerful future CEOs and entrepreneurs, maybe
presidents even but yet when it comes to men, I did not understand their
choices. I used to admire their bravery, I admired how they put up with men
some worthy others not worthy. This thing called love; I always said it was overrated.
I was the one with the sane mind when everyone else around me was in the love
bubble and I was happy with that. I was mother hen and they were my chickens,
the one they run to after a broken heart and I would help them mend their wounds.
But not anymore I am in the deep end with them right know, I do not know how it
happened or when it happened I will never know, all I know is I just woke up
one day and I was so in love until I sung about it. (Dangerously in love- Beyoncé)
This my wedding song to him if we ever get married because it communicates everything and more of what a feel for him.
I love him; I have
never been stupid when it came to matters of the heart until I met him, now I see;
now I know how my friends felt about the men who had captured their lives. I am
in it so bad that I do not know if I will ever love like these again. He never professed
he’s love for me, he cares and loves me that I know but our love is a different
love affair, its twisted, it’s that kind
of love where words are not necessary because I know he would go to the ends of
the world for me and I for him.
He is the one
for me, nobody could ever compare to him, if I do not end up with him he will always
be the great love of my life, he will be the one that got away because he makes
me want to be the best I can be. He is so tall and dreamy and that lip of his
makes me go weak in the knees literally. He smells so freaking great I could
have him for breakfast every single day of my life as long as I live. He is not
my boyfriend just my friend, we have never dated or gone out, we are two
different people from two different worlds but that just only brought us
closer. It is not complicated now as I always thought thanks to Facebook. Everything
is clear now, I love him and he loves me and no matter how our story ends, I will
always know in my heart that we had something special, beautiful and twisted.
We had and still have.......a
